What I needed

This may sound really corny but you know what i was craving corn this week ; ) (that wasn't the corny part either)

Anyway so I had a fairly bad and stressful day today. Then I watched Glee (amazing) all of a sudden they were singing Lean On Me! one of my favorite songs so of course i started singing along. It was one of those moments where something just clicked and well why did they sing that song? and why was it on the episode tonight? I don't know, just coincidence I guess. A happy one though.

Peace Love Harmony

thinking

On wednesday i had a very embarrassing moment at the end of class.I'm pretty sure everyone saw which made it even more horrific. See I lost control, I was very stressed and very tired and very sick. So I took thursday off from school and that was that. I feel alot more in control and alot calmer. Well I was thinking about skiping that class today so i could go work on a paper in the library instead, but then I thought, what will everyone think if I don't show up? OMG they'll think I couldn't take it or something worse. I knew that I should go an hold my head up high, but well, I really didn't want to (that class sucks!).

I decided that I would not go, and e-mail my teacher to let her know I was ok and hadn't jumped out a window or something. (When it comes to thinking about suicide methods, my mind always goes to the window-just to be clear I am not thinking of them to kill myself Noooooooo way so don't worry). I also knew that my friends would not think bad things about me and when I told them my reasons for not being there, they would believe me and be glad i was better. As for those other people, really who cares what they think? They don't think so blah!!! If they are curious they can ask me what the hell happened, I don't mind telling them.

This "breakdown" was a hurtle I had to jump, something I had to get through so I can continue and finish up the semester and then the year. It doesn't seem so scary anymore, the work load seems doable and even though I still wish that I could speed time up, just enough so that we all sound like chipmonks when talking, I know I can make it through this semester and to the next. Gosh I only have 3 1/2 left here @ this college. Wow.

Anyway from now on all i have to remember is "be calm, be calm i know you feel like your breaking down..." In the words of a great band-Fun. their song "Be Calm"

So Peace, Love, Harmony and MENTAL HEALTH

Quote~

“Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else’s opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation.”

- Oscar Wilde

maybe it sounds stupid

I have blood on my hands, no it is not red. I don't really know what color it is but it is all over my windshield. I really feel bad for that grasshopper who decided to jump onto my windshield when I stopped for gas. I should have stopped and gotten him off before I got on the highway. I wish i could know if hes/shes ok, though i doubt it. Iknow it sounds stupid, but i have no right to kill anyone even if it is a less desired creature.

I am sorry grasshopper.

Peace Love Harmony

Short Note

We lost another: Patrick Swayze.

I am getting to the point where I know these people who are in the tributes at award shows. Only a few years ago I would constantly annoy my parents with a barrage of "Who? Who? Who?" Now I don't need ask I already know who and what they did.

I hate getting older.

Rest In Peace.

Peace Love Harmony

Today

Today is a good day.

Peace Love Harmony

Scared

The following should be read with sarcasm

My room mate has the flu, Great! So I am just over excited about this year already. I have dreadfully hard classes, miles to walk everyday, and now a sick sick sick sick room mate who says she wants to die. Lovely.

I already miss my parents, my pets, and my summer jobs. I say we start a do over.
This is not a good year. I should have known that though: I am an even age, and even aged years suck.

Tomorrow, tomorrow, sigh, tomorrow...

Tomorrow school officially starts with the first day of classes. ick. I've been here since yesterday and tonight will be my second in my new apartment!

I wanted to type that this past summer has been one of the best of my life. I turned 20, for starters. I had a great job that pays well and amazing people to work with. I also had everything I could have hoped for in an internship. I have gotten to do things that I never have before; some that very few people get to do at all: groom mules, herd sheep, relive the past. I have had a slogan printed on a bracelets; one of which is in Japan! I went to these movies: Up, Star Trek, 500 Days of Summer, and Harry Potter. I have also gotten to go to RENT with Adam Pascal and Anthony Rapp, Warped Tour to see VersaEmerge, The Cab, Coldplay, The Fray, and Sir Paul McCartney all in the span of 3 months. I have awesome friends who remembered my birthday and I had food thrust at me from all directions. Yeah there were bad things; gaining weight, bands breaking up, and I barely had time to breathe, and yet I am so blessed and so happy. So even though I am homesick right now, and I have the daunting prospect of classes tomorrow, I still need to remember that I am insanely lucky and loved.

The first thing on my morning checklist is: "Smile with the rising sun" because I know it won't be easy but I need to stay positive or loose everything I am.

Peace Love Harmony!!!

Its beutiful and so are you

This past Wednesday my family and I went to see Paul McCartney.

It was magical.

I grew up listening to the Beatles and they are to this day my favorite band. I'll be the first that out the fab four, Paul would be my least favorite. Maybe that's harsh as I've never met any of them. Anyway, sitting there listening to the music and realizing that this is as close as I'll ever come to hearing a beatle play. He played more Beatle songs than I expected, and of course a tribute to John and one to George. I actually started crying during "Something" "Hey Jude" "Let It Be" and "Give Peace a Chance." Those songs mean more to me now than they ever have. I understand a lot more of what they were saying, and yet the meanings still change too. I am so lucky to have seen him twice now, and maybe I will get one more chance to. If not, I am so greatful that I was able to appriciate him live more than when I was 13. He is an amazing, tallented, and genius musician and no one can deny that.

"All we are saying is give peace a chance!"

This summer, while its been great for me, has obviously taken a toll on some of my favorite bands. If you care to look back, you will read that I was quite distraught at the beginning of July when Panic at the Disco became Panic! at the Disco and the Young Veins. Well earlier this summer, I think in June or so, Alex DeLeon of the Cab announced that Ian Crawford was leaving to pursue his own musical excursion. Oddly enough Ian is touring with Panic! at the Disco right now as a replacement.

Anywho, yesterday, Alex DeLeon also announced that Cash Colligan is also leaving the Cab. Sad day. So I don't get what it is with all these bands spliting this summer. Don't get me wrong, I understand why they are doing this and I know that what they say is true: They aren't abandoning their fans, they aren't abandoning the music, or their friends. I don't think that there is any animosity between them either. People just want there to be so they have a reason to hate someone for the split. Luckily these splits have been mutual and I am just thankful that it wasn't ugly, cause it could have been.

I do wish them all the best.

Peace Love Harmony

I got gnat skilz

I totaly just snatched a gnat out of the air! twice! hahaha

He was pretty cool about it too.

So to you little bug:

Peace Love Harmony

return to childhood

Yesterday after I got off work and was driving around running errands (*sigh* i hate errands) which you know have to be done. I'm trying to wrap up all the lose ends from my internship and also get ready to go to school in a week-ish (eww not ready yet). Anyway the point: I was going to get gas in my car, and they way I get to the gas station is by driving through some parking lots. Well I kinda got turned around and ended up going through the lots in a different way. Well for some reason there is a lama in a fenced in field right around there and as I drove by it, it looked dead! I freaked out and was very tempted to stop and go and ask if it was indeed dead. All in these 30 seconds that I pass this lama I am thinking 1) that it is a traumatizing sight for anyone but exspecially kids 2) should I go ask about it? 3) God, I hope it is just sleeping!!! 4) Please be sleeping!!!. I decided that once I got gas, if it was still dead looking I would go and ask about it. Poor thing! Well I drove around the other side and Yea! it moved! The lama like got up and moved! I was so relieved.

Well I was thinking about that poor lama today as I was driving to work and I happened to be at a stop light. Across the intersection was a paddock with horses in it! I love horses btw. Well two were standing at the corner where a telephone pole is and the way they were blocked by it made them look like a horse with two heads. Well that reminded me of the book, book mind you not movie, Dr. Doolittle and his Pushme-Pullyou. The only problem is that the pushme-pullyou was a two headed lama!

Anyway I guess there really is no point to this: just a story to tell.

Sooooooo

Peace, Love, Harmony

So long, farewell....

My internship is coming to a close this Thursday. Boooooo I love it there. I'd much rather be there than going back to school.

I have had so much fun there this summer. I have learned so much about the town that I grew up in and the family that lived in the house. I have learned much about myself and what job I would love to have. I have also made some really good friends and not just with the animals. I have also done so much that I never expected to do in my life like herd sheep or find a dead raccoon in the middle of the creek. Some days have been worse than others yes, and some days extremely boring, but most of the time it was bearable. Like the prairie dresses, hot and uncomfortable but it was bearable considering that we go to help kids milk a "cow."

All I can hope for is to be able to visit on breaks and to be able to find a job like it again. No place will ever match up to the Farmstead because it is a museum like no other.

Good bye everybody. Bye Pete and Bill. See you later Jack. I never forget the sheep, sheep. Shut up Geoffrey, we get it your a rooster. Ah the Guineas. Smell you later chickens.
Bye Farmstead.

"Walk the Past"

Nerd Alert!

I know that I am a nerd. I have known it for a while now but I don't care. One example of my nerdy-ness: Whenever the time is 7:47 pm (in the morning if I am up that early I am too tired to care) I laugh! Cause its like an airplane! hahahaha

Anyway I am really trying to focus on letting Peace into my body, Love into my hear and Harmony into my mind.

So
Peace Love Harmony

Books

I love to read.

This summer I have been really good and reading a book a week. Yea! After I finished the Percy Jackson series(gotta love the Greek Gods!) my mom gave me these books that she read when she was my age. They are called the Amber Saga or something like that. I am on the 4th of the original 5. They are really good, strategy, magical, royal, mystery books. Not too girly and not to much of the fighting-bloody war stuff either. If your looking for a good adventure I'd recommend them. The first is Nine Princes in Amber by Roger Zelazny.

Good reading

Love Peace Harmony

New Music!!!

Yea! I got exactly what I wanted for my birthday this year: money. Seriously that is all I asked for. I don't care if it is boring or that I don't get to rip open any bags or boxes. I can do that in six(ish) months. I wanted money so I could go and buy exactly what I wanted: music, in the form of cds. I am so excited because they are supposed to be delivered tomorrow. I got: thenewno2's You Are Here, The Cab's Whisper War, Plain White T's 2005 album (can't remember the name...), and Grizzly Bear's Veckhamist (though I am not sure about the spelling).

Anway I am really excited for them! I also downloaded the Cab's new ep The Lady Luck and Death Cab for Cutie's ep Open Door. I downloaded only those because I figured that they were just eps. See I am trying to break my dependence on downloading, even though I always use iTunes, because it is really awesome to have the cd's plus more money goes to support the band, and they need all that they can get. If I don't really know much about a band or if I only want like one song then yeah I'll still download, otherwise I am doing my best to be patient and order them, or buy them from stores. Plus there is so much more to having the music with the cover and booklet-thing. I mean they put work into all that and the presentation of the album. Also if my iPod dies or is charging or I don't want to take it, I always have my cd's with me in the car. Plus if you ever meet the band they can sign the cds. (VersaEmerge did for me. I actually wouldn't have gotten the cd cuz I already had it downloaded, but it was free with the t-shirt).

Another topic all together: My boss remembered my birthday. It is totally a double edged sword because even though it means that we are doing lunch and I get another cake etc. I feel really bad that they are doing all this for me. I am not that special. But it is an excuse for them to do something fun too. Still I don't like to be the center of attention. I never have, believe me. Oh well nothing I can do. Lunch has been ordered and will be en route soon. Oh well I can't wait for the new music to get here! Eek so excited!

Anyway for the first 3ish days of this year of my life it's been pretty good; lots of b-day wishes, music and happiness. I promised myself that even though even years have not been the best (12 was horrid, 14 I started high school -do I need to elaborate- 16 was pretty much friendless in classes, and 18 was a hard year in college with all my new made friends leaving) I will not let it be that way again. I will take a positive outlook and I will keep Love, Harmony, Peace close to my heart and mind.

So until the next time I get to write:

Love Harmony and Peace to you!

"Birthday"

As I commented yesterday on here: Today is my birthday. I am in fact 20 and on to another decade of life. Ever year when I get "happy birthday" sung at me I cringe. I hate that song. It is, in my opinion, one of the worst songs/pieces of music/ditty, whatever you want to call it, ever written. I much prefer the lesser known "Birthday" by the Beatles. Of course no one will sing it for me : ( though it does need to be sung on key or in tune at least to sound good. Unlike happy birthday which always sounds terrible. Here it is:

"You say it's your birthday
Well It's my birthday too
You say it's your birthday
We're gonna have a good a time
I'm glad its your birthday
Happy birthday to you
Yes we're going to a party party
Yes we're going to a party party
Yes we're going to a party party
I would like you to dance
(Birthday!)
take a cha cha cha chance
(Birthday!)
I would like you to dance
(Birthday!)
Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaance

I would like you to dance
(Birthday!)
take a cha cha cha chance
(Birthday!)
I would like you to dance
(Birthday!) ooo
Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaance
You say it's your birthday
Well It's my birthday too
You say it's your birthday
We're gonna have a good a time
I'm glad its your birthday
Happy birthday to you!"

My song/growing older

This morning I was listening to Panic at the Disco stuff (wonder why) and well there is this one song they have that every time I hear it I think that it describes me. It is off their album Pretty. Odd. and is the 3rd song: She's a Handsome Woman. Not like I think that I am a "handsome woman" or what not; it is the lyrics that I love. Especially the beginning.

"Innocence. Sunk the glow and drowned in covers sent for all your absent lovers things. Sheepish wolves looking livid and eating buttons wink just don't put your teeth on me."

I am still shook up about the split. I have accepted it better and I trust them that they know what they are doing. It is still hard to accept but there is also nothing I can do. I still have the music that they made in the past and I will have the music that they will make, even if it is under 2 different names. And I will always have my song, though neither written about me or for me. I feel that it fits me anyway.

Tomorrow I will no longer be a teenager. I have lived for 2 decades and it seems crazy that I am that old but then again I know it is not old at all. I just have always loved being a kid. Not like I can't regress sometimes. Sometimes I think that I have already reached ages way beyond my true age in things that I say or ways that I act or think.

Every year up til this one I have counted down the days until my birthday, well since I could count at least. I always loved screaming the number of days left to my family, or making it go on the screen saver. This year I have been so busy with my job and my internship and a few concerts, that the date snuck up on me. Today is my friend Emily's birthday. She and I have known each other for over 1/2 our lives. Lately, since we've been in college though, we've lost touch. I used to call her every year and now I post on her facebook. And that is sad. Maybe I'll try to call her later. I miss her (sometimes).

My last room mate did not take turning 20 very well in my opinion, but she is the kind of person who wants to have a family by the time she is 25ish. I would rather travel a little and take my time finding the man I want to be with the rest of my life and get settled into a job I enjoy before I get tied down with a family. I've begun to learn that life is precious and that you have to take it as it comes and cherish it. People say that you only live once, and I have no idea if you do or not but this life has been pretty good to me so far and I want to make the most of it.

This year I've been trying to find out who I am as a person and who I want to be and what my values are. I think that I have come along way in doing that and I hope it continues. I know that I like being independent and strong. I know that I cherish all life and I have no right to take it away even if the creature is only an ant. I know that I feel sad at tear-jerker movies and even cry at them. I also know that I only want friends who won't stab me in the back or turn on me because I don't like their friends. I know that I want to keep spreading harmony, peace, and most of all love to the world but I sometimes forget. I know that as long as there is music I will be happy. And I know that "All you need is Love."

So happy birthday to me! 20 years tomorrow. wow.

Love peace Harmony

Ouch.

I am still hurting from yesterdays heart breaking. I know that Panic didn't do it to hurt me or any of the fans. I know that it is for the best even if we can't see it, or hear it as the case may be, now, but that we will eventually. I sort of feel that if they were completely breaking up and going 4 separate ways I would be able to handle it better. That I think is just a lie to myself. I also think that I am so upset because I don't think I can handle the "replacements." This happens to be another example of me lying to myself.

I can't handle the fact that Ryan, Spencer, Brendon, and Jon are no longer together. I can see only those 4 as Panic(!) at the Disco (the ! is optional) and no one else and that I can't imagine them in separate bands. To me they are all parts of the same entity. I learned of them together, I listened to them together, I fell in love with the music they wrote together. I .... I want them together.

It is for the best I know, and I trust Brendon and Spencer when they say that everything will be ok. I know it will once I hear the results, it is just hard to accept right now. I also can't help but feel that I jinxed it a little bit in an earlier post. I really don't think so, but I kinda do. I didn't mean to because they were one of my favorite bands.

I was just thinking about it and this Beatle song came to mind. It seems to fit right now. (Isn't it weird how Beatles looks funny without the 's'). Maybe I am being a little over dramatic but you have to understand that music means more to me than anything else in the world. If I could live off of music I would already have died from obeseity, if that makes sense. So when something happens in the music world I react. I feel like the members of the bands are my friends even though we've never met. When I am in the record/music store I feel like I am home, I am completely relaxed and could spend hours there. So because something so astronomical happened I feel as if my family is spliting up.

Here's the Beatles song:

"What goes on in your heart
what goes on in your mind
you are tearing me apart
when you treat me so unkind
what goes on in your mind
the other day i saw you as I walked along the road
but when i saw him with you I saw my future fold
its so easy for a girl like you to lie
tell me why
What goes on in your heart
what goes on in your mind
you are tearing me apart
when you treat me so unkind
what goes on in your mind
I met you in the morning waiting for the tide of time
but now the tide is turning i can see that I was blind
It's so easy for a girl like you to lie
Tell me why
What goes on in your heart
I used to think of no one else but you were just the same
You didn't even think of me as someone with a name
Did you mean to break my heart and watch me die?
tell me why
What goes on in your heart
what goes on in your mind
you are tearing me apart
when you treat me so unkind
what goes on in your mind"

Love Harmony Peace

Speechless

I'm stunned
Panic... split apart
I don't really know how to feel
I like them all and I know that they will keep making good music.

Ow

But I trust what Spencer twittered "...every little thing is gonna be alright
"
Good luck to them. I'll still be listening out there. It's always been about the music for me. The music. The Music.

Love Harmony Peace

Happy Birthday!!

Today is July 7th and that means that it is my favorite Beatles' birthday!!

Happy birthday RINGO!!!

Yeah yeah so I can have a favorite even though I grew up about 30 years after their era. Who cares anyway. They were a great band and their music will always be on the top of my list.
I totally remember that when I was in first grade or something I was obsessed with Ringo and the boys. My friend Emily and I were going to draw some ears on a piece of paper and send them to Ringo. We never did though. The idea came from "With A Little Help From My Friends"

"Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song and I'll try not sing out of key"

Of course We didn't realize that the Beatles was a thing of the past and we had no idea where Ringo was living. We were seven ok!

Usually I would type out "Birthday" by them, but it is too long to do right now. Anyway I'll be hearing it this Saturday. Also don't forget to go get your free slushies at 7-11 Saturday!

Til then
Love Harmony Peace

Baller!

Ok yesterday I went to Warped tour '09! Yeah yeah pretty fun. I hate it when my moms right and I should have worn sunscreen.... Yeah kinda look like 1/2 a lobster on my arms and what not.
Anyway I was excited because I got to go see one of my favorite bands: VersaEmerge!! They were all really cool and nice when I talked to them and all. After their totally kick-ass show I went to get them to sign some stuff for me. They were all really baller and signed my shoes! See I've had these converse for like 7 yrs and I love them and they are falling apart but I don't want to throw them away. And now I can't.

Thank you VE for putting up with my strangeness. I hope I wasn't to freaky fan girl for you!

Love Harmony Peace

phone operators

My job consists of helping people over the phone, like so many others. I always dread calling places where I will have to do something like activate a credit card or a phone etc. I mean its horrible exspecially if you get cut off. More then once I know I have lost my temper at someone trying to help me. Sometimes it seems like they don't care.

What I am trying to say is: The people on the other side of the phone are people too. Its frustrating to sit at a computer all day answering phones and looking up accounts. Also having to deal with people who want to bite your head off is hard and depressing.

I feel bad now when I get frustrated with someone trying to help me. I know what it is like on the other side. Really I guess I am saying that please be kinder to those people. Maybe they'd be more productive if they didn't have people yelling at them all the time.

Its not their fault. They are only human too.

even they need some

Love
Harmony Peace

Black Gold

I wanna spend a little time posting about Black Gold. No not oil, the band. I'd thought that since I used my awesome blog power (not so much) to promote another of my favorite bands (VersaEmerge-go see them at warped tour! I am) I could do that for some other groups. I decided on Black Gold because I was listening to them today.

Black Gold is a group that consists of Eric Ronnick and Than Somethingorother (I feel bad I don't know his last name but my search online to find it didn't work). Anywho, they released their first album in February and it is amazing.

I decided to get onto their myspace and listen because Eric is the keyboard player for Panic at the Disco on tours, most of the time, you know unless he's touring himself . Anyway I'm glad that I did, listen to them that is. The first song I heard was "Plans and Reveries" featuring Brendon Urie (he seems to be everywhere doesn't he?) and it sent chills down my spine it was so good.

The songs on the album are so diverse and yet they work so well together as a whole. Some of the songs even take me back to the good old Disco days, not like I was alive then, but still.

I could sing their songs all day and the next day and the next day and the next day. They are so catchy but not in a bad way at all. (I tend to think that if songs are too catchy, then they lose a bunch of meaning that should be there).

Also before I finish off my post I want to say something else about Michael Jackson. Yeah he was creepy looking and the end of his life was sort of odd etc. but he was incredibly inspirational and it is a big loss to the world.

And last but NOT least, Good bye to Farrah Fawcett. Even though her death was sort of expected, your life and acheivements should not be overshadowed by another, unexpected death.

Peace Love Harmony

Rest In Peace

Wow!
I can't believe it.
Michael Jackson.....Dead?

Wow.
Wait he was 50?!
50!

I never was a big fan of you. I know I let my prejudices against you get the better of me so I never listened to your music, till recently, at least. Yeah, maybe I used to call you "Cruella Devil" since I saw a picture of you in a magazine (it was her to a "t" -what does that expression mean anyway?-). But I'm sorry you're gone, not sorry maybe that the Beatles (mainly Paul) will get the rights to his music back (I assume) but still sorry that a music, and dance, icon has died.

So sad. And shocking. He always knew how to get the headlines....

Bye man.

Real Love

A while back I typed out a entry on Love and I was just thinking about that.

"All you need is Love"

I still believe that with all my heart (no pun intended) and then I realized something else to and surprise surprise it has to do with music.

So RENT is my favorite musical, "rock opera" (whatever), right? Yeah I'm a total new-age RENThead. Anywho Roger says something really honest in the argument "Goodbye Love." He is actually referring to romantic love, or lust if you will, but I think that it works with Love in general.

"All your words are nice Mimi
But Love's not a three-way street
You'll never share real love
until you love yourself
I should know"

If you think that you are not loved it is most likely because you block out the emotions by hating on yourself. And with all that hate coming from so close a place, true love, sincere love gets blocked and what you may think is love is really just pseudo-emotions.

Just to be clear I am not aiming this at anyone that I know or speaking from experience, just from observation and my own thought process.

So special from me to you:

Harmony
Peace
LOVE!!

This morning as I was driving to work I was listening to Phantom Planet simply because I like them and I haven't listened to them in a while (I have like over 1600 songs on my iPod-and that would be a good old fashioned video iPod from like 2006-ish-). Anyway thier song called "Anthem" came on and well I really like it cause I think that they hit upon something really important.

"cause this whole world needs an anthem
And I?m trying to put the words where they belong
Yeah this whole world needs an anthem
And I'm hoping everyone will sing along"

Personally I believe that music is incredibly important to people, even if they don't realize it, and yeah we all have our National Anthems... but is nationalism the problem here? No, probably not. and btw- I am NOT anti-US or anything 'k? I'm just saying the when the world began to nationalise it seemed to make things in general worse.

My point is, well maybe the way to get people to cooperate with each other is to connect through something like music. I know that I am always open to new, different sounding things.

Until someone writes and Anthem for the world:

LoveHarmonyPeace

Flower Power!!

I am so sick and tired of seeing a whole bunch of Woodstock shirts and "Summer of Love" shirts around in stores. Yeah Yeah it is like 40 yrs later but we are not in the "Woodstock" feeling. Also no one who really embodied the spirit of those people there would never wear those silk-screen, mass-porduced shirts.
So the world is no where near the spirit of Woodstock. Unfortunalty Flower Power is dead today. I have to hope that it will be resurected somewhere along the line. I have to hope! However there is very little trust in other people today and without that feeling of community and peace and brotherhood, there can never be another Woodstock.
If there ever is another, I will be there no matter my age, unless of course I am dead, then look for some one carrying around a cistern with Peace, Love, Harmony painted on the side. If I am still alive then I will be wearing a shirt with that on it.
because
Peace
Love
Harmony
are the most important things to my life right now.

So what

Ok on the first note: my titles suck for entrys
secondly, so yesterday I went to buy a book at Barnes and Nobel, the second in a series. Well the only reason I bought the first one was because they had set them out on one of those table displays. They are by Rick Riordan and are fantasy about the Greek Gods. Well I love the Greek Gods, I always have. Well when I went to get the second one I had to ask an employee where they were, he led me into the kid section, it wasn't even in the teen section (which btw I still can shop in for a few weeks or so) (and btw last night was I think the first time an award show host said 'b-t-w' on TV, re: the Tonys!)

Anyway yeah yeah yeah I am reading a series deemed for children. BUT the books were right next to the Harry Potter series so HA.

I guess there really isn't a point to this except that AT LEAST I'M READING!!

Peace, Harmony, Love

"How do you measure..."

I recently bought RENT the Final Performance and I watched it the other evening, and cried of course.

Anyway the point is that afterwards I was thinking about how every time I see RENT in any form (movie, stage, dvd of stage) I always end up crying during the second act. Of course that's the act where Angel dies and everyone gets mad at everyone else. I think it moves me so much because every time I watch the show, it takes on new meaning for me.

Anywho the point I really want to make is this: "seasons of love" and all of the show really poses some very phiosophical questions. "How do you measure a year in your life?" Really how do you do that? What really is important? Or what is important to you?

I certainly don't know yet. I do know that everyday I hope for peace, love, and harmony in everything and everyone. But as for whatelse is important.... well I'm still trying to figure that out...

Meanwhile

Harmony
Love
Peace

"Quack!"

I've been working at two places this past 2 weeks and they could not be any different then they already are. One place I sit at a computer and take calls all day and get paid. The other place I never know what I'm going to end up doing and I usually end up outside, sweaty, and attacked by bugs of various sorts. And there I am not being paid.

Which do you think I would rather work at?

The second one definately. Except for the fact that I don't get paid for working there.

I go there tomorrow and I am really excited! There is always something different to do there. Today I am at the office one. Its not a bad job at all, just long and tireing and monotonus. Though yesterday I was on the phone with this one man, I explained something to him and he responeded "cool beans." That really perked me up because here was this man, probably in his 40s or more and he said the phrase "cool beans." It was epic.

One thing that working at these two places has taught me is that: when I get a full time job, you know once I actually get out into the real world, I don't want a job where I end up sitting at a desk for 8 hours and do the same thing everyday.

I don't know. At least I have a job and an internship. . . not that I'm really complaining

Peace, Love, Harmony

Quote

Productiveness is not always the most important thing, or the best thing either.
-ME

(I know it is not all that profound, it was like 5 minutes eariler but at the time I was being productive and the words slipped away)

Peace Love Harmony

So this is what I missed...

Today at my internship(!) I was shadowing a tour of preschoolers and their parents. I was amazed to see that every kid had their own sunglasses, apparently the new must-have item this summer. Also when the parents stepped up to take pictures of their kids only one of them had a actual honest to goodness camera. When I say camera, I mean a digital camera. All the other parents took pictures with their Iphones.

I am not just schpealing about this because I HATE the iPhone, and oh boy I do, but I was astounded. Maybe it was just seeing parents who had a good knowledge of technology, but I think it was more that it was the largest number of iPhones I have ever seen in one place.

Yes my parents have trouble turning on the TV (I literally got a call at school once asking how) and using a regular ipod (am i charging this right?) and recognizing cell phones (I wasn't there but apparently my mom thought her new phone was actually and attachment).

And yes, I absolutley LOATHE the iPhone, and for the record I adore all other apple products except the iPod nanos. I don't know I just don't see what the big deal is about them. I get that it is a phone, camera, iPod(mp3), gps, blackberry, handy man's helper, wilderness survival guide, hand held game, and pretty much anything else you want it to be (I wonder if there is an app for all the things that there is an app for?) but COME ON! Really? I mean I already paid like $400 for a video iPod (white, if you wanted to know) and over $1,000 for a macBook, about $30 a mo. for a cell phone, and $100 for a crappy digital camera. So why on the gods green earth would I pay for something, though amazing that it is, that I don't need? Because it's handy you say? HA! I remember before the internet was good. I remember what it is like to live without cable, I remember when cell phone were a novelty and only business people had them, I remember the palm pilot. All this makes me sound old but I barely have lived 2 decades. For godsake I remeber the old dell computers with the black screen and yellow type!!!!!

I am so living perfectly fine without one of those imbicile phones... I'll probably wish I had one once I find myself lost deep in the wilderness, after parachuting out of a crashing plane, with only granola bars and water to last a day or less and I am surrounded by bears, and no hermits in sight to kill for their food. It will be then that I will cry out for my long lost iPhone that there was no way in hell I would buy. The ironic thing is that if I did have an iPhone there with me and an app about how to survive when lost in the woods... I'll bet the reception would be non-existant.

I wonder if there is a "how to deal with withdrawl from your iPhone" app.

Peace Love Harmony

Just Watched...

Just finished watching Nick and Nora's Infinite Playlist. Really good movie i liked it alot, plus the soundtrack is really good too, it should be because it is about music, kinda. And if you can't tell I am like a music fanatic. I'm not sure if I would run around NY looking for a secret show though... I'll never know unless I am presented that option. I know that it would have to be some artist or group who I really really really really love; I can't think of anyone off the top of my head though.

Anyway now I have another incentive to go to NY. I really really really really wanna go to Electric Lady Studios. Its like the American version of Abbey Road, almost. I've never been to a recording studio and I would absolutely love to since I love what comes out of them so much. I hope I will be able to go to England next summer and if I do I have got to go to Abbey Road. I just want some time to wander around those iconic walls and see some stuff there. Just to stand in the place that Ringo Starr, John Lennon, Paul McCarteny, George Harrison, Jon Walker, Ryan Ross, Brendon Urie and Spencer Smith, plus others that I probably listen to and don't even realize, have stood, sat, smoked etc. If I can do that it would be an amazing point of my life.

I may have just found my odessey, which probably doesn't make much sence. The only question I really have to ask is: Am I really willing to give up Italy, and possibly more of Europe, for studios...

I really don't know. Maybe I do though.

I'll get back to you

For now

Harmony Love Peace!!!

sigh

I guess I could write something on here but my life right now is horribly boring and normal, not like it is ever crazy or interesting. I did finish my year at school and now is the down time between school and work.
Yeah...

Love Harmony Peace

Rent

Today I went to see Rent. It was absolutely amazing. I am so glad and so happy that I was able to go. It was an early b-day present. The show was baller because of the songs of course, the story line, the actors and also because of the shows history. One of the coolest things about this showings though, was the fact that it starred Adam Pascal as Roger and Anthony Rapp as Mark. Not only did they reprise their rolls from the movie, but also they were the original Mark and Roger from the 1996 opening.

It was so much more of a rock thing than a musical, audience wise. It is technically a rock opera but everyone cheered and clapped when they stepped onto the stage and when Angel appeared in "Today 4 You." It is such a moving story and made even more bitter sweet by the story of the director, writer, and composer, Johnathon Larson.

It was indescribable to see it on stage. I am so lucky.
In honor of the event I am changing my last thought

No Day But Today.

realization

i just had this moment, you know the ones that make you step back and really think about something? Well I just realized that after 5:00pm next Wednesday, I will be halfway done with my college career. That is insane. Insane! It feels like I wasn't even here last year and I think in a way I really wasn't. I didn't do anything last year. I did hang out with people, but we really didn't do anything when we did, except talk about how there is nothing to do here.

I also can't believe that this year is almost over either. I mean were already right back around to summer, and only a few months til my birthday. Then I won't even be a teenager anymore.

It's all very surreal.

Love Peace Harmony

finals

two down two to go.....

finals

One down 3 to go

Random thought

You know those insurance comercials where the people say "I'm there" and then the camera shows them standing on big red circles? well what i am about to type and what you are about to read has absolutley nothing to do with insurence but it does have to do with being there.

So I was listening to All American Rejects' new album this morning (When the world comes down) and have to say that i think that it is their best by far. Of course they only have 3 but still. Anyway I decided that they are really at that place. I'm hesitant to call it a peak becasue that implies that there will then be a fall and that may not happen for a while. Anyway they are there, turning out great music and I think that they really know what they want to sound like from now on. Like they have found that particular muse or opened the flood gates.

I also think that Panic at the Disco are there too. I don't know if Fall Out Boy ever got there (I only listen to their latest cd). I think the Academy Is... is almost there, maybe with their next album. VersaEmerge... There is no telling for a while, I mean they just got signed. And with other bands I listen to: Oasis, Death Cab for Cutie, Coldplay, i think that they have been around for so long that they are there and have been there.

Ok I need a disclaimer before i go further: Yeah I'm writing like I am an expert or something in music, like I know what it is to be there or what its like. Well I don't I dont even know the ins and outs of music. I know what i like. I know what i don't like. I am not a music major or anything even. I took a music class this semester and I don't even know why it was hell. (its over today cuz i have the final this afternoon). This is all just my opinion so you don't necesarily have to agree or believe what i type. That goes for the entire blog.

anywhoo

Harmony
Peace
Love

coming to an end

is THE WORLD!!
JK
my semester and sophomore year is though tg!
This year has been awful and amazing. I like my friends and I had fun at the parties I went to. The work load was not too cool, and still isn't. I still have my 4 finals to study for, which I have been doing, don't get me wrong, its just that I really don't want to take these tests, 2 of them are supposed to take 3 hours! I have 2 this week and then 2 next week so this weekend I am gonna be packing my room and cleaning it. I can't wait to get out of the dorms.

Anyway a week from tomorrow @ 5pm I will be officially done with my second year here and soon to no longer be a resident of this dorm! then the day after that I will be home!

I can't wait to see my parents again and have all the animals around me. great that means clothes covered in dog and cat hair again : /

cross your fingers that these next 9 days will go by quickly and that before I know it it will be the 6th of may. Thank god I already have my sister's b-day present!

Anyway
Harmony, Peace, Love

bragging rights

Today in my hip hop class we had the end of the semester battle. My team won! woot. We were awesome!

Love
Peace
Harmony

Listening to now...

Black Gold's debut cd Rush, "Shine"


Harmony, Love, Peace

Jodi- "don't look at me. I'm too embarrassed"
Charlie-"You were saying how you felt. What's embarrassing about that?"
-Center Stage


Love Peace Harmony

btw

Oh so Wednesday was Earth Day
but as one of my t-shirts so greatly proclaims: Earth Day Every Day

or it may be Every Day Earth Day.... not too sure

Harmony Peace Love

Listening to now...

Fall Out Boy Folie a Deux - the entire cd actually... at the present second "What a Catch Donnie"

Peace
Love
Harmony

breaking boundaries

For the past year or so I have been letting my guards down and letting me be myself. I have also been trying to find out who I am and who I want to be. Luckily I am not attached at the hip to someone else, like SOME people are so I can do that. Anywho I found out that by going places and being social I have made some really great friends and that feels good. It really does even though it can take like 10 minutes to walk through the sunpoarch... I don't care cuz it is nice to be stopped and chat for a little bit.
I am just glad too that for like every evil person I have met in my life there are like 7 really amazing sweet people. That's a pretty good ratio but it could always be better and so once more I come to the point I always end with. Make that ratio better by spreading

Love Harmony Peace

Ballet

has the right idea about relationships: the men are just there for support, they are just there to look pretty.

Love, Harmony, Peace (I thought i'd switch it around)

Listening to now...

All American Rejects, When the World Comes Down, "Gives you Hell"

Harmony
Love
Peace

perspective

Well hello is this thing on?
Is anybody listening?
A brand new day has begun

The first thing that I want do
Make sure that you feel it too
So I'm not the only one

C'mon and lift me up it's a brand new day
Open up a little happiness today
So I can be someone new (so I can be someone new)
C'mon and lift me up to a better way
Open up a smile on another face
So I can feel something new

Open up, open up some happiness
Open up, open up some happiness
Open up, open up some happiness
Open up, open up some happiness

Ahem ahem
Let me clear my throat
So you can hear clearly every word spoke
Today I woke feeling lovely
Happiness overflowin' knowin' somebody loves me
Just think yesterday I was down and out
Now there's not a single thing for me to frown about
And the same thing can happen to you
Smiling so hard my mouth look like a capital U

I want the sun to shine
All the time
Is that too much to ask
Oh, I want to have some fun
I want all my friends to come
'Cause it's now or never
Learn the words and sing together


C'mon and lift me up it's a brand new day
Open up a little happiness today
So I can be someone new (so I can be someone new)
C'mon and lift me up to a better way
Open up a smile on another face
So I can feel something new

Your heart deserves your trust
A choice made by all of us
The sun will come back tomorrow
There's a message in the bottle
So come on I'll meet you there
There's enough sunshine to share
As long as you know
The bridge between us is a rainbow

C'mon and lift me up it's a brand new day
Open up a little happiness today
So I can be someone new (so I can feel something new)
C'mon and lift me up to a better way
Open up a smile on another face
So I can feel something new

This is a song written for coke for their new add campaign
it is really catchy and peppy and happy and it makes me happy
plus it is just a reminder to not let things get you down. to have some perspective.
I definatley have that this morning.

Peace
Love
Harmony
; D

i feel horrible

So here i am sitting here wallowing in my own personal problems and there are so many people who are in a worse condition. My problems will end in 15 days. 15 days and I move out of my dorm. Other people are stuck in combat zones or 'poverty' or poverty or addicted to drugs or even people who are dealing with abuse of all kinds. And yet the only think I can think of is how i pissed off my room mate and how she is acting like a little 2 year old. I just have to endure a little longer and then its over. Those other will have scars on them the rest of their lives.

At least i can still emit

Peace Love Harmony

beauty

Everyone talks about inner beauty and that that is what counts, especially as people are in their teens. "It's not how you look on the outside, its what's inside that counts"

Well that is bullshit in this society.

Too much emphasis is placed on people's looks. Its what first attracts people to each other. Its what makes the famous famous.

Today I watched this movie called "Music Within." In it is this man with cerebral palsy (idk if that is how it is spelled) anyway he and his friend are asked to leave a pancake house because he looks weird and can not talk normally and shakes.

Also on Britian's got Tallent, or whatever that show is, a woman came on, she was not exactly a knock out and said she could sing. Nobody believed her and i was like "What! Just because she's ugly means she can't possibly have a good voice? WTF." I mean that makes no sense I mean there are pleanty of pretty people who are tone deaf and i mean TONE DEAF! And even though she proved everybody wrong, the next time people are still gonna judge someone on their looks, unless it is like the same freaking scenario.

I'm not saying that I don't judge people by their looks, I do. I will try not to too much anymore. It's not like I'm anything special, I know I'm not ugly, by any means, but I am just kinda plain Jane.

All I am asking is that next time you see someone who is not exactly a knock out, maybe don't turn away automatically maybe talk to them a little bit before writing them off. I'm gonna try.

Peace Love Harmony

All you need is Love

I have listened to this song since I was a little girl. It's pretty easy to understand but hard to agree with. Exspecially in this day and age, almost 50-40 years after the Love decades. Well I began to say that, no someone can not live on love alone, for one thing you need money and a job and food and clothes (social stigma) etc.

This morning I listened to the song again and I finally realized that the Beatles were right. All you need is Love.

There are two ways I can see that it makes sense.
1)All those material things are really unnecessary and if no one had them you wouldn't want them either. So people should worry more about not having love then not having a TV or computer.
2)If you are loved and you know that, then you have the strength to do what you need to to get everything else. If you have love, everything else is attainable if you want it.

Panic at the Disco said: We must reinvent love. I think that in some ways they are right and in some ways this goes hand in hand with "All You Need is Love." See I think that today the word love has taken on new meanings. I think that people throw it around too carelessly. "I love those shoes" "Omg I love him he's so cute!" "I love it when we don't have class." Uh no you don't you like it you may enjoy it but I'm pretty sure you don't LOVE it. Also I think that our culture puts way too much emphasis on relationships and therefore people focus on finding love romantically. And because they are so desperate to find love, they prematurly say those three little words "I love you." I'm not saying that every one does but a lot of people. I have to wonder how much some one really means it. I think that the young people are led to this more. Yes I am thinking of a specific couple. I also think that because of the emphasis on romantic relationships and that they mean love, people forget to look for the love they get from their family and their friends.

I would be nothing without my friends love and support and that goes a trillion times for my parents and my sister's love.

I have a lot of support going for me right now and I am really greatful. And I feel like because I know I have their love, I can do anything. So Thank you guys. I love you too.

So yeah in a sense I do also agree that "we must Reinvent Love," or maybe we just need to redefine it.

All this is one reason that I always, or most of the time, end my posts with:
Peace, Love, Harmony
because those are the three things that the world needs more of and I try to live by them and I believe that if others do too then the world will be a much better, prettier, happier place.
So
PEACE, LOVE, HARMONY

I meant what I said and I said what I meant and an Elephant's faithful 100%!

-Horton the Elephant.

How come doing the right thing makes you feel like shit? no like "rock bottom then fifty feet of crap, then me"

Love is real, real is love,
Love is feeling, feeling love,
Love is wanting to be loved.
Love is touch, touch is love,
Love is reaching, reaching love,
Love is asking to be loved.
Love is you,
You and me,
Love is knowing,
We can be.
Love is free, free is love,
Love is living, living love,
Love is needing to be loved.
-John Lennon

the beatles

The White Album

Magical Mystery Tour

Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band

Help

A Hard Days Night

Abbey Road

Revolver
Rubber Soul

Let it Be

Beatles For Sale

With the Beatles

Yellow Submarine


Favorite Band EVER

they were and still are full of
Love Peace Harmony

thank you

Since I love music so much i thought that maybe i should really say thanks to all the artists who record and play the music. Of course they will never read this but whatever.

that brings me to another note: thanking people. I think that if everyone just took the two seconds it takes to tell people thank you for doing something this world would be better. Like the bank teller who helps you out or the checkout person who scans your groceries or the person who holds the door for you even if they didn't mean to.

it is just another way of spreading the
Peace Love Harmony!!!

friends

I love that TV show but that is not what i wanted to write about.

Lately I've been hanging out with a new group of friends, and i love that. We've had a lot of fun together. I mean I sort of feel like I am flippy and just move from group to group to group cause the beginning of my frosh yr here i hung out with completely different people but they became majorly annoying (how evil is that way of thinking) so i began avoiding them. So for the second half of my frosh yr I met two new people who are currently my room mate and her boyfriend. Well I hung out with them and a few frosh last semester quite a but I don't anymore. There are alot of reasons for this one 1) the boyfriend annoys the crap out of me (seriously can't stand him any more) and 2) I don't enjoy doing the same things they do (basically drink to get drunk and walk around campus).

So these new-ish friends (I've known most of them since last year but am just getting to know them better) see we don't hang out all the time but when we do we always have fun.

I was thinking about how awkward I am today and I began to realize that I think I like these people because, well, even though I'm weird and I am awkward and i say really stupid things sometimes, they let me be me. They don't try to influence me or change who I am. They just point and laugh at me until I laugh with them. Like my friend Nat promised me (she'll be my room mate next year in the apartments) If i fall down the stairs and break my leg she will point and laugh at me and then call Josh to come and see my humilliation, who will probably bring Katie, and then she'll call 911 while they take pictures!

I love them so much!

Peace Love Harmony (we can alway use more)

coincidence?

today while deciding what shirt to wear, i picked out one that has 2 dates on it. one for october and one from april. every year i try to remember to wear the shirt on those dates, well i thought i missed the april date and so i decided to wear it today cause i hadn't worn it in a long time. when i was in class i realized that the date was not april 6 as i thought but april 14. today.

I wonder if it was just coincidence or what...
sometimes things happen and sometimes, well alot of the time, i think why.

really no point to this story ...

Oh well

Peace Love Harmony!!!

beautiful people

So beautiful people seem to be famous people... are they really beautiful or do we just think they are because they are talented and are on magazines everywhere?

think about it

Also think about
Love, Peace, Harmony

Congratulations to Miss H 2009! My dear friend Sharpay Evans!!! So much more than a beauty Queen and the only one to get a standing ovation! You go Girl!! Luvies to you W.P.

Its a true friend who waits to welcome you to the party. ; )

and now and forever more Peace Love Harmony!

I love....

I love life! I love music! I love my friends! I love my family! I love spring! I love summer! I love birthdays! I love cleaning to an extent! I love the 1960s! I love Love!! I love Peace! I love Harmony!

VersaEmerge

VersaEmerge is one my favorite bands. They are fairly unknown right now since they just got signed in December 08. I really like their stuff for their lyrics just because they seem to express exactly what I am feeling this year. Their ep Perceptions is what I'm mainly talking about because well it all has to do with perceptions hense the title. I don't know i just really enjoy their sound and they are like nothing i've really listened to before.

"We were all so undone that we couldn't think of one"
"Clenching my teeth to perfection"
"And I -I see through rose colored eyes"
"They're letting their eyes cross cause they dont know they don't know what we know"
"cause people are the same -they are the same-only habits change-habits change"
"Patterns don't feel right still talking like you know what i'm all about"
"Granted we take the things we grow to see more clearly lost in reverie"

Those are some select quotes from thier lyrics off of both their eps Perceptions and VersaEmerge. In an interveiw they said they would have a full length album out buy the end of the year. I hope so. I really love their stuff but I've also listened to it like 50,000,000 times not likt that is a bad thing I won't ever stop listening I just really am ready for something new. The same with Black Gold and Panic at the Disco. I think Panic are actually working on demos though... I hope so.

More later Probably

Peace Love Harmony--Always

Explaining what i meant last night about looking to music all the time. Well today I was really annoyed this morning. Why is not important ... anyway so I was about to put on Taylor Swift because her song "Fifteen" was in my head this morning. Instead when i scrolled my ipod menu of albums A Fever You Can't Sweat Out by Panic at the Disco was right under Fearless. So I thought hmm I haven't listened to AFYCSO recently so I put it on and it was great because like all the lyrics are dripping with disdain and sarcasm and it really helped me work out my annoyence at some people *cough cough*

In class this morning i was having a bad time of it and i decided that I needed some "Open Happiness" which is the song writen for the new Coke a Cola campaign. Well I am listening to it now over and over because it is just about the happiest song I've heard.

It's amazing how sometimes you can listen to a song over and over and over and over again and not get tired of it. It's those songs that make it into my All Time Favorite Songs Playlist so far there are only 8 in there:

Here, There and Everywhere-The Beatles
Imagine- John Lennon
Hallelujah-Jeff Buckley
The Luckiest-Ben Folds
In Your Eyes-Peter Gabriel
Round Here-Counting Crows
Valerie-The Zutons
Eidleweiss-from the Sound of Music


Peace Love and Harmony

one more thing...

So I realized that while I am more innocent than alot of people my age or even younger than me, that innocence is disappearing more and more everyday and that makes me a little sad. It also makes my desire for rose colored glasses, round ones like John Lennon's glasses were, even stronger.


As always

Peace! Love! Harmony!!

favorite song title ever...

Just wanted to say that my favorite song title ever would be "From a Mountain in the Middle of the Cabins" off of Panic at the Disco's second album Pretty. Odd.

Peace Love Harmony... I really mean it too, they are not just words to me...

time of stress

Being very close to the end of the year i know everyone is becoming really stressed out and allergies definitely don't help. Believe me I know. Anywho I want to apologise if i say or do anything to make you upset at me because i know neither of us mean it. That is just in general to anyone. not like anyone reads this but at least i'll have proof....

In times like this I turn to music. and when i mean times like this i mean crappy days that could always be better, of course today could have been worse...
Anywho i had to run around campus carring coolers up and down stairs for work. then i decided to grab a quick lunch before voice. So by the time i was there for my voice lesson i was not in a great mood. I began getting a blister on my foot and i was very hot because i had raced across campus to get to my lesson. not fun. not to mention that i was incredibly sore in my left leg from dance on monday so going up and down stairs all morning was Not Nice.

Well voice was fun, which was nice. I love singing.

Anyway back to the music. I said i turn to music in times of stress or times of unhappiness or times of rain or times of sun or times of morning or times if evening or ... well you get the idea. music pretty much rules my life. True story.

I'm currently listening to Ryan Star. There is just something about his voice that is so beautiful. it is not polished at all like some people's voices but there is just something about the roughness that makes it work. idk. I have his album Songs From the Eye of an Elephant, which is just an amazing title anyway becasue i love elephants. I still think that my favorite song of his is "Losing your Memory" but I also really love "First Time" and "Dance with You." These songs don't really have anything to do with my mood but music just makes me happy.

So anyway just remember
Peace Love Harmony...

Classic Song

So I didn't used to be a big fan of music, I always liked it but it was never that important to me. I just watched Almost Famous this weekend for the 2nd time and i remember not being very impressed with it but i also think i was too young when it came out to really appreciate it. Anyway I really like it now for alot of reasons but i took the soundtrack from my sister and put it on my computer over spring break so lately i have been listening to Tiny Dancer by Elton John. I've never been a huge fan of his either but there are just some songs that are classics and i also think that since i'm older it takes on a new meaning for me.

"Blue jean baby/LA lady/seamstress for the band/ pretty eyed/ pirate smile/ you'll marry a music man/ballerina/ you must've seen her/ dancing in the sand/and now she's in me/ always with me/tiny dancer in my hand/ Jesus freaks/ out in the streets/handing tickets out for gone/ turning back/ she just laughs/ the blvd. is not that bad/piano man/ he makes a stand/ in the auditoriun/ looking on/ she sing the songs/ the words she knows/ the tune she hums/oh how it feels so real/ lying here/with no one near/ only you/and you can hear me/when i say softly slowly/ hold me closer tiny dancer/count the headlights on the highway/ lay me down in sheets of linen/you had a busy day today ..."

Great song. I love music

Peace=Love=Harmony=What we all need...

feel...

So right now I am feeling very unappreciated and very invisible. The funny thing is that I always wanted my super power to be invisibility. Anyway I just began playing this Flogging Molly song that everytime i listen to it it sums up that inadequate feeling anyway here are the lyrics and maybe you'll see what I mean.
drank away the rest of the day
wonder what my liver'd say
drink, thats all you can
blackened days with their bigger gales
blow in your parlor to discuss the day
listen, that's all you can

chorus:
ah but don't, no don't sink the boat
that you built, you built to keep afloat

sick and tired of what to say
no one listens anyway
sing, that's all you can
ramblin' years of lousy luck
you miss the smell of burnin' turf
dream, that's all you can

chorus

singled out for who you are
it takes all types to judge a man
feel, that's all you can
filthy suits with bigot ears
hide behind their own worst fears
live, that's all you can
it's all you can
it's all you can...do

no matter where i put my head
i'll wake up feeling sound again
breathe, it's all you can
tomorrow smells of less decay
the flowers greet this bloomin' fray
be thankful, that's all you can

chorus

a ripe old age
that's what i am
a ripe old age
just doin' the best i can.

They are such a great band. Check them out if you have time.

do what you love

So lately i've been missing dance alot and mourning the fact that i stopped when i got to high school. True i started when i was 10 or so and was never great but it was always fun. Well i've taken classes on and off through out hs and college for pe credits but it's not quite the same. the part i really miss most about it are the parts leading up to the show. the run through the tech the costumes... and since there is no way i would have been able to be a dancer anyway even if i had stuck with it, i would have had to let all that go at some point. I still miss it though. But if i love dance i am going to find ways to keep it in my life even though my world gets exponentially busier every year, if i love something then i'm not gonna give up on it. If it comes down to me just dancing in my room then so be it. and yeah there are things like concerts and parties around campus that i can go dance at. but that is not the same at all. I mean thats not the dancing i'm talking about. Idk i just hope i will make time for it in the future. I know i will because now i know the regret of leaving it behind.

Love, Peace, Harmony

you know what sucks...

1) not posting something because you're afraid that someone will read it and take offense. I don't mean like some stranger but a friend. though i don't know why i would be scared she doesn't read this. Anyway i decided that i am fed up and i have to say something to get it off my chest, getting it off my mind would be nice too but that won't happen cuz there is like a constant reminder there.
2) having the fact that i don't and have never had a boyfriend pushed in my face almost 24/7 because i am too meek to say no. but i feel cornered every time she asks "do you mind" kinda yeah i already told you it was too much...
3) It kinda makes me gag, how they cant be apart like ever...
4) makes me wonder if i'll ever be that comfortable with someone else
ok so these numbers aren't making sense anymore with the original question but who cares.
Also why the hell does he have to be here if he is bored or sick? I don't need to get sick, i don't have the time or the energy to be sick. Unlike some people *cough cough* and he complains about EVERY little thing and of course she jumps to help him. I mean its like well dude suck it up. when I'm sick, which is rare, I still do what i have to, work, class, homework, etc, I don't take the day off and sleep even if thats what i want because there is too much that i have to do.
it is just really annoying and kinda sickening seeing them all cuddly all the time. I think the funniest thing is that she told me back at the beginging of the year that she doesn't like the PDA thing. Well i think that you need to look up the definition of PDA. Also they are planning to move into a single next year. i roll my eyes at the thought.
I was gonna say something else but i don't remember... oh well

Peace, Love, Harmony

I <3 music

OMG sooo exciting. this morning i woke up with music in my head and not like something i have in my music collection, but like something new, something not written yet! Exciting right? So of course when i realized that it starts to slip away and i am only able to grasp something like "its the things we do" and i knew there had been a line about the world needing peace. but instead of being completely bummed I just said to myself, maybe it will come back to me. If it does i will try to focus on the melody and get that in my head so i can pick it out on the piano or something. Of course i don;t really know how to play anything so i am kinda screwed for a while. Some of the lyrics, or jist of them did start coming back so i hope the rest of it does. The most exciting thing about this is that maybe i can write my own music. I mean i don't really know all the technicalities of music or music theory but neither did the beatles and look at them. not like i'm saying i want to be the next beatles or anything but still... I just love music so much that if i can make some myself i would be so happy i don't care if i get recorded or sold or anything like that I just want to do it for me.

Love, Peace, Harmony

I forgot to post this. It's a quote from Australia (I like Hugh Jackman alot better with the beard)
"Dont got love in your heart you got nothing. No Dreaming. No Story. Nothing."

Peace, Love, Harmony

WOW

I just finished watching the movie Australia and it is amazing. I don't think I've cried that much at a movie in a long time. That's partly because I don't let other people see me cry. Not even my family. So when watching Milk in a crowded burrow of course I held back the tears. Even watching The Secret Life of Bees with just my family I wouldn't let myself cry. Its not like I am ashamed of feeling and crying, it is one part of myself that I love I still cry at Rent even though I've seen the movie like 60000000000000 times. I don't know why I don't like people to see me cry. Sometimes I say its because I don't want anyone asking why. That is so annoying you know sometimes you just want to cry. Sometimes you just need to cry. Does it really matter why? If I was so upset I needed to tell you I would believe me. Of course it could be something else in me not letting me cry. At least I can and I am not like Cameron Diaz's character in the Holiday. Anywho the point to this is basically even though the past few days have been really good days, it still felt really good to have a crying purge. I feel very refreshed. I feel hopeful and ready to go on my walk around so I can get to my happy ending. I guess I am on my walk around now. Learning, a rite of passage, sort of.
the kinda sad thing is... my list of movies i want just went up 2 and the ones i want to buy next month went from 3 to 4. I'm glad i didn't go to target then, cuz i bet i would have bought one there and i really don't have the money for it.

Peace, Love, Harmony

I wish it was raining cuz i'm so happy!

So last night my life was made just a little less stressful by completing housing for next year and by finishing one of my papers (still have 3 big and 2 little left).
I will be living in apartments next year and I am so excited about it. I've been constantly looking at the floor plans for the past few days. I can't wait to have my own room again and my own bath. Also this building has elevators and probably the most exciting thing is ... Drum roll..... "Brrrrrrrr" it is being built NOW! which means me and my new roomie will be the first to live there!!!! So excited!

whoops

PEACE
LOVE
HARMONY!!!
TIMES A BIZILLION

Life is not easy

So sometimes life is harder than other times. Like now for me. I know that it could be a lot worse than it is and it is not that it is horrible, just really busy. And crowded *cough cough*
Well I am trying this new philosophy where I look for the good things in a day. I know a day is really bad when i can't find a good thing or only one good thing. Well today I have a big good thing to be excited about!! So I found out that a sort-of famous singer is following my twitter account!! I don't really know what that means but see i have this silly dream that maybe people will take note of what I'm saying and either apply it or just think about it. That's all I really ask: for you to think about what I say. Maybe it makes sense or maybe it is a bunch of nothing.
And like I said before: if we don't have our dreams we don't have anything.

On the topic of love

Ok Coke has this new music campaign coming out "Open Happiness" and if you haven't heard the song you should because it is really good and uplifting. Anywho there is this line in the 2nd verse that goes "I woke up feeling lovely/happiness overflowing/knowing somebody love me" well I think that that is very important to remember. And really if somebosy loves you that's great and I know that my family loves me, but for me the best feeling is waking up knowing that I love me. And even though there are like 1000000000 things that I am frustrated with with myself, well probably not that many, but you know what I mean. and when I started to think about them I realized that most of them were physical imperfections and then I realized that physical isn't me. I mean it is because that is how I am presented to people but the physical can, and will change. Personalitly wise I love who I am. And I think that that is one of the best feelings. That and 1) waking up with a good song stuck in your head 2) A good band realeases a new album! and 3) discovering a new, good band (I don't think that anything can top that feeling).

Love, Peace, Harmony

Losing my memory

So there is this amazing song by this guy Ryan Star and this song popped into my head today for the silliest reason. I was sitting in class and the professor was going over some business stuff. well I wrote the date at the top of my notes: Thursday March 24 2009. Well them the prof had to ask why we were all so subdued today. Some kid mumbled something about thursday and the teach was like "Its not thursday" and silly me was about to say yeah it is and then I realized the it really wasn't. I was crushed.
Anywho beside my crossed out thursday i wrote "I'm losing my mind" and that sparked this song called "Losing your memory"
so anyway I really like the first verse and the bridge.
the bridge goes like this:
Wake up its time little girl wake up
all the best of what we've done is yet to come
wake up its time little girl wake up
just remeber who I am in the morning
your losing your memory now
your losing your memory now ......

you really have to hear it but whatev.

Peace, Love, Harmony with every step, thought, and breath..

Rain

Today is one of those days where it looks like rain and it smells like rain and it is sticky like rain, but so far not a drop has fallen. I love rainy days. I don't understand why most people don't. I mean I get that it is not fun to sit in wet clothes all day but still... it is just water...
One day last semester I think, it was pouring down rain and I was in my dance class. While watching all the other people flee to their cars and dorms I decided to take a leisurely stroll through the downpour and dance a little, barefoot and carefree. Sure I got soaked but who cares? It was purifying. Whenever its rainy I like to, as always, turn to music. I have a full playlist on my itunes for days like these. So if rain gets you down I suggest you listen to these songs and sorry but I am not gonna take the time to find them on line cause I am lazy and no one reads this so who cares. Anywho here they are:
Rain by the Beatles
It's raining in Baltimore- Counting Crows
Let it Rain-Ok Go
I Have Friends in Holy Spaces-Panic at the Disco
It's Raining Men-the Weather Girls
Rainy Day-Plain White T's
I Wish it Would Rain-the Temptations

Someday I will add: Singing in the rain and some others but don't have that or other rain songs on my itunes yet.

So as always: Peace, Love, Harmony

I was just thinking... (and yes this is me procrastinating yet again) about my rings. See I have two rings that are really important to me. One is my class ring from HS which, though high school sucked! (because it is never anything like the movies) It is still really important to me because it represents me and my parents paid alot for it.
The other ring I bought when I was in Dublin from this little vendor man on the street. I found it on the last day and it was the one thing that I wanted for myself. I sometimes like to think that it is like a promise ring between me and Ireland that I will go back there one day. I will go back one day.
Well last year when I went to college, my fingers shrank, as strange as that sounds so the rings became too big for my fingers : (
I almost lost the Ireland ring twice and I was flipping out something major.
Well after the second time I decided that it was too risky for me to wear them on my hand anymore so now they are on an old chain around my neck.
I don't know what I'd do if I really lost them but I check like eighty times a day to make sure that they are still there. I'll probably wear them the rest of my life. Its amazing how much we can get attached to material things like that. I am attached to a lot more than those two rings but still. Sometimes I think that it is kinda silly, but then if it helps me remember things then I don't care.

Peace Love Harmony

sick :(

for like the first time this year i am sick. I hate it to because it is not like the good kind of sick where i get to relax and lay in bed and watch a lot of movies. No this is the sick where I still have to get up at 7:30 everyday, go to work and/or class and write papers and take tests and read my regular homework. Y-i-p-p-i-e.

It's probably been a long time coming to so it most likely wont be easy either, not to mention I am stressed out. Why this week? why?

Sleep would be nice but unrealistic with everything I have to do. Ok so positive thought.... hmm this is hard today but I will come up with one oh I know I get to order this magazine that I am really excited about tomorrow if not today and tickets for RENT go on sale and I get to see that once finals are over and I am back home! See there is always something good and I am trying to remember that more and more everyday. "Always look on the Bright Side of Life" as Monty Python says. Did you know that Eric Idle had to sing that at Graham Chapman's funeral. Anyway its like in the lyrics "if life is jolly rotten then there's something you've forgotten and thats to laugh and smile and dance and sing"

SO Laugh, Smile, Dance, Sing and don't leave out the Peace, Love, Harmony either!

not much

I feel obligated to post something today. That and this is a great way to procrastinate. So I am in the midst of writing 2 papers, 5 pages each and right now they are kicking my ass pretty good right now.
*Sigh* only five-ish more weeks until finals! I know that sounds kind of crazy but finals are so spread out for me that it will be relaxing after writing 4 research papers, one annotated bib, one more midterm, an ID test, a biographical sketch, a recording review (whatever that is) and dealing with housing and planing my schedule for next year. (Next fall is gonna kick my ass too)
Oh well
I'll get through this someway and then I'll have just 3 1/2 years left of school! and 2 degrees to show for it.

Until then,
Peace, Love, Harmony

I'm NOT a Hypocrite but...

One of my favorite tv shows is M*A*S*H. and yes it is somewhat about the korean "police action" and I know what your thinking: I went on a huge tirade earlier this morning about how idiotic and completely irrational war is. Well the thing I like about MASH is that I consider it a show about humaity because when it comes right down to it that the characters do really desent things and it always makes me think about the cost of war and how we can really help each other out. And how much we really need each other. And then there are the laughs and the pranks that people pull on each other.
anywho really boring I know but check it out if you ever have time. and no I have never seen the movie, just the tv show.

Peace, Love, Harmony

You Idiots!

So I was reading the Aeneid the other day and you know the last last books are all about the war between Aeneas and Latvinia's suitor? Well like 10 pages from the end the tale the suitor is all like "I must end this man to man with Aeneas!" and I was like why couldn't you have done that at the beginning? Why did all these people have to die in place of a duel? Idiots. And then Juno, the god who instigated all this is just like "I give up" and I was like Don't you care that you sent hundreds of men to their death? To make a long story even longer: it made me reaffirm what what I figured out a few years:

War is stupid.

I mean c'mon people the reason we ever really go to war is because some idiot, or more than one idiot, is trying to force their beliefs onto someone else. So I will once again preace tollerance. Don't get me wrong, I have great admiration for someone who will fight for what they believe in but the bottom line is They Shouldn't Have To. I pray everyday for peace in the world instead of this incesant fighting. I mean think about it; the US hasn't not been in a war since WW1 which was supposed to be the war to end all wars! Ha! I think that there have been like 20 "the greatest war"s in history. I don't know what to think anymore except to keep protesting that we answer violence with violence. Whatever happened to "Two wrongs don't make a right?"

On another note, just as sad though: Natasha Richardson! Tragedy. RIP. I can't beleive it happend again. First Heath Ledger, then Bernie Mac and now...

Just keep giving Peace, Love, Harmony out to the world.

Soul Food

-HUG!-
So I have learned that nothing is better than a hug to cheer anyone up. Unless of course they are germophobic or people-phobic etc.
For me hugs are like the best thing ever. As said on Pushing Daisies: hugs are like and "emotional Heimlich"
So if you need cheering up or see someone who does I suggest a hug! The chocolate ones don't hurt either : )

Peace, Love, Harmony

Scream it out baby, scream it!

so really unimportant but yesterday I felt really loved for one simple reason: My friends felt the need to scream my name across campus! Well two of them did. But after the second time it happened I just remember walking away thinking "Aww they yelled at me!"
I know you're probably thinking what a pathetic little loser I am. In response I will say 2 things.

1) I am not a loser. I am a Nerd and very proud of that fact.
2) How many times a day do your friends feel the need to call out your name across campus? Or How many times a day do people yell at you from across the campus?
Think about it. That's so totally one of the reasons I love this school and it's very liberal, loving, accepting atmosphere.

Peace out yall!
Peace, Love, Harmony

Money, Money, Money

So I've been thinking lately about money and how I don't have it and how people are panicking so much about this recession we're in now and how awful things got during the 30's and all. Isn't it so sad how much we all depend on money? Just think that we wouldn't have any problems like this if we didn't need money so much. The Spartans weren't even allowed to have money. I mean if we didn't have to pay for things then sure no one would get money as a salary but no one would need it. I don't really know how that would actually work but I'm almost positive that it can be done since it was in ancient times. Those people did fine bartering for things. Why couldn't we try the same thing again. Produce what you need and what you can't make yourself trade with someone who can. That way the world would be more personal and friendlier.
I don't know. I doubt that anyone would want to get rid of money, oh well it is nice to dream. And you should because without dreams there is nothing to look forward to, no excitement, I think.
Peace, Love, Harmony

Clovers!!

HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY!!
I love this day because I love the Irish culture and the Irish Isle and the Irish people and everything Irish.

Peace, Love, Harmony!

two points

Hey y'all! I can't believe that I have time to post 2x today!!
Anywho I had a few thoughts that I thought I might like to type out for anyone.
Like I said in my last post, I woke up today thinking about a certain person, a member of one of my bands, and just pondered a little about how I believe he's making the world a little shinier. (Also with the song Goodbye Yellow Brick road in my head) Well this person, Brendon of PATD, seems to always be working on something musical, like guesting on other albums or this Coke thing, and it is very reassuring to know that when panic breaks up (don't hate me for saying this its NOT happening now and hopefully wont for years, but they can't be together forever, sad I know) at least the music will still be there driving him onward, his, theirs, forever. That was very comforting to me. Comforting to know the music won't stop.
Also I read up on and pay attention to a handful of famies -famous people- who are just a little older than me and following their dreams by being musicians or dancers etc. I, however am stuck here in college tearing my hair out over grades and clubs and classes and papers and tests and readings and housing and classes for next year and my upcoming internship and money and work and requirements for my major and my minor and professors when I would so much rather be out there living and traveling and doing something that I love like the famies. Not fair right. I mean I am certainly not as tallented as they are and school isn't all bad. I guess that some of us just have to pay more dues than others, which how could that really be tallied? Anywho, sometimes I think: why can't that be me? why can't I be performing, recording, photo shooting, etc. and then I realize that for what I want to do and what my place is in the world, I need to be here and I need to know these people that I know and am meeting and even though it sucks at times, in the long run I hope it will be worth it.
I'll tell you what it'd better be goddamn worth it or I will run away to europe somewhere and change my name and everything and never pay off my student loans. I'll survive by marrying some wealthy man or something like that....or I'll just revert to a life of crime or become a real-life superhero.
Peace, Love, Harmony!

Heros

Hey there phantoms! Today my topic is heros obviously. There are a whole bunch of people out there who I really looks up to. Most are musicians, because I love the music they play and I never will have half the talent that they do in their pinky finger. I also admire those people who are who they are and don't hide behind all the walls that we usually do. I certainly hide somewhat. Not so much on here but in my day to day life. I am trying to remind myself that I don't have to hide and letting myself come out little by little. And it is hard. In this society, and exspecially in this (US) culture to be truly yourself is a scary thing. But I'm trying.
Anyway back to heros, I was reading another blog today of some one I look up too a lot mainly because of her outlook on life, but it got me thinking that. . . well i don't know really what. but it got me thinking.
Wow this post realy makes no sense and kinda doesn't have a point really but oh well not like you phantoms really care. as i said before it is really just for me! One if the few thing that i do for me actually.
I guess just to connect back to the title (i hate titles btw) but some of my heros are: Julie Andrews, John Lennon, and Stephenie Meyer. Actually i think that those are the big three because of what they do: make the world a better place. that is actually a thought i woke up with in my head this morning. that so-and-so makes this world a better place.
I guess that that is my goal in life to. Probably not on the scale as alot of others do but if i can make another person smile once a day I'll be happy for a while.
I believe there is still hope that we can live peacefully side by side.
Actually, yesterday, i was driving for about 6 hours and after a while I really start to get annoyed at other drivers or the road or the elements etc. but everytime I would curse, or say something, or even thought something mean about someone, or something else, I would take a deep breath and just remind myself of "Peace, Love, and Harmony" because that is what I am working toward in this world.
So I leave you with
A Little More Peace
A Little More Love and
A Little More Harmony
because it is like Queen Latifa's character says in "the Secret Life of Bees" (see it if you haven't or read the book) you have to give love back to the world to git love back. Love the bees and they will love you. Like the Beatles said too "and in the end the love you take is equal to the love you make" (everytime i think that i sing it in my head and hear the music to it too)
Have fantastic lives until we meet again!

Whatever Happened....

to the idea of PEACE?
or at least focusing on the positive?
is it just me or does the world seem to be in an everlasting state of turmoil? whatever happened to those wonderful people who advocate peace and love and and and whatever else! I have made this statement before but our generation does NOT know how to protest! Or really to have their voice heard. I am beginning to think more and more that the most important thing that we can do as humans is to say our opinions and to listen to others and really just love every thing and everyone. Maybe I am a "tree hugger" or whatever but I don't care. I am an advocate for a peaceful world and for trying to resolve things in ways other than fights and war. I have faith in the human race still. I believe that we can pull ourselves out of this spiral of destruction and extend our hands out to our brethren and find someone holding their hands out to us. Like those shirts from when we were little with the world and all the people standing on the surface holding hands. Whatever happened to those?
It's like John Lennon said: "You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one" and I know that I am not the only one still out there. All of you who believe that peace is still possible and that the world could be and should be a more loving, accepting, trusting place need to rise up and make your voices heard. I'm trying to. It may take decades or even centuries before we're set right again, but it is not out of reach yet.
Take some time and listen to these songs:
Imagine- John Lennon
Mona Lisa-All American Rejects
Someday-Plain White T's
Northern Downpour-Panic at the Disco
Sello Tape-Flight of the Conchords (I'm a nerd I know)
*Sorry for the constant references to songs-but that is pretty much how I live my life, with music playing.

I am so conforming...

so here is my twitter I love it btw. I probably will use it mostly to make music quotes of what i am listening to or what i feel or both. Like a year ago i wouldn't have gotten one because EVERYONE has one and i hate jumping on the bandwagon and all but ... as someone once quoted on their blog:
"To be nobody but yourself-in a world which is doing it's best night and day to make you somebody else-means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight and never stop fighting" -e. e. cummings

The same person, and his band also said: "we must reinvent love."
Not much connection maybe but I think that if we take into consideration that if we all just acted like ourselves and stopped trying to make people be someone else and remembered that "what the world needs now is love sweet love" and that "all you need is love" the world would be a much better place. "I can't prove this makes any sense but i sure hope that it does."

"can you hear me?"

Thanks to Black Gold for the title of todays post.
So having a major freak out and it's just PEACHY (sarcasm if you couldn't tell) to quote Black Gold again. . . "I'm having a breakdown. I'm having a breakdown. And all those things I ask in my prayers are falling away now." except instead of "I" it is "you". Well all I ask for in my prayers is some perfect man to love me, to graduate from college, go to grad school and get a good job in a museum where i get to travel (europe!) for a while.
oh yeah i now have twitter too. once i figure out what the link is i'll post it if any of the nonexistent yous out there want to hear more from me...

OMG! Professors are evil. well no not really but how the hell do they expect us to do everything they want? I mean who assigns 70+ pages to read in one night?
So if you haven't listened to Black Gold then OMG google them and listen to their stuff! they are absolutely amaZING!
my favorite song by far is "Plans and Reveries"
"I want more . . . Give me more . . . I want the burn and bliss again"

Sometimes I have to ask myself what the hell am I doing here? and by here i mean college. That's a question i find i still can't answer well except for i want a job later in life. *sigh* c'est la vie

"I knew that we would be alright"

So I love this band: Death Cab for Cutie. (I love alot of bands) and this song has always been one of my favorites from the album and then yesterday I saw this!
How sad and sweet is this video! No joke it almost made me cry.
Luv

"Childhood Living"

Welcome March!
yea! only like 2-3 weeks left of winter! Not that I don't like winter, it's just that it is sooo cold, well for me anyway. I am just ready for sunny days and short sleeves and flowers and an excuse to enjoy nature. Like yesterday it SNOWED! it is MARCH and I don't live in the mountains or the north!
Totally off topic but i LOVE the Rolling Stones. You know sometimes they just got things right. Anywho this is from one of their songs "Wild Horses."
"Faith has been broken. Tears must be cried. Let's do some living after we die. Wild Horses couldn't drag me away. Wild Wild Horses we'll ride them someday!"
This is also played in the movie Camp! Amazing movie. Totally think that it would have been the first High School Musical if it didn't deal with homosexuality and cheating and sex. I mean c'mon Disney, there are other more prominate issues out there... Don't get me wrong, I do like Disney, the old classics like the fairy tales: Beauty and the Beast was always my favorite and the Pixar movies are good to (so totally looking forward to the new Up) but otherwise Disney just isn't the same. As my dear friend likes to say "Disney Chanel is like crack" that is assuming that she knows what crack is like, which she doesn't...

remember: it's ok to be selfish sometimes

Hey y'all or me i guess since i really don't think anyone reads this. So i just wanted to say hey and that i've decided this blog is not really about getting people to read it but more for me to get my voice out there in the world and a way for me to vent i guess. Vent really isn't the right word but whatever. like i said not like anyone is reading this...
So it's not about the readers, it is totally about me! which is great! i need something that is just for me in my life!
Yeah!
Luv!

I forgot...

Oh yeah! Happy Marti Gras!! : )

Hello World!!

Hey World!
So I have never actually done anything like blogging before. I mean who wants to hear MY thoughts right? Well, more like read I guess. Anywho I've always been one of those annoying lurkers on posts and all so I figured that maybe if I start my own blog I can actually do a few things: 1)stop boring my parents with endless "revelations" I have had that day 2)Say what I think for once 3)get my voice out there, which is incredibly important btw and 4) (blank stare at screen) Well i guess that is really it.
A few things to know: I am technically challenged for the most part. I am a horrible speller. I LOVE music so most of my post will probably mention something about music. I also think that I am a 21st century hippie. Like if I had been born in another generation I would have been living in the 60's. Or maybe the 1300's in England! But then I'd want to be a noble woman courtier so I would be married to some old rich dude and then I could have these scandalous affairs with young knights!
Anywho, Yeah i am a kinda strange bird and all but whatev!
So not much to say right now. Though I do want to say something about a recent celebrity-ish break up.
So a member of one of my favorite bands broke up with his gf last week or so. I feel so bad for both of them and judging by their blogs they are both kinda messed up, which is to be expected. Anyway to all those people who are still gossiping about it or are mad at one or the other: Let the poor people be. It is none of your business! really give them a break. Like any of you are going to read this but still on the off chance that you do. Please let it go. Hate towards others just makes the world even more messed up than it already is and that is something we don't need.
On a really random note: woke up this morning with 1, 2, 3, 4 by Plain White T's in my head. Amazing song btw. give it a listen if you haven't already.
K thats all for now. Homework calls.
Peace out Y'all